Dear Diary,
This week I will be turning 28 and I’m a little intimidated by 28. It’s not that I’m getting closer to 30 (that was last year’s issue) but the intimidation is because 28 has to be a good year because 28 is my lucky number.
I can’t exactly explain why I chose 28 as my lucky number, I believe lucky numbers choose you. I’ve known that 28 was it for me since the 7th grade. You see the 7th grade was when I had my first major crush, Joey Cora of the Seattle Mariners, #28. Not only did I know immediately that Joey Cora and I were to be married but that from here on out 28 would be my lucky number.
To tell you the truth I have no evidence that 28 is really my lucky number because I’m not a lucky person. That doesn’t mean I am unlucky, I am just void of luck. But I’ve always known it deep down that 28 meant something to me and would be meaningful number in my life.
So now, here I am on the precipice of turning 28 and filled with fear. What if 28 is a year like any other year, or even worse, what if 28 is just like 27? Ever since the 7th grade I’ve felt that something would happen to me when I turned 28, I would have it all figured out and might finally become an adult. Right now at 27 I am far from that goal, I live with my parents, have no job, and am spending my days glued to my computer. I feel as though I will never be an adult and never have it all figured out.
Then again do I really want to have it all figured out? Does anyone really have it figured out? Also if I figure it all out then life ceases to become interesting. So maybe 28 can be a magical year by allowing some mystery to remain in my life. Maybe the most amazing thing 28 can do for me is to be just like all the other years.
Hugs and kisses till next time!